Back to the Basics

8-5-2010

I feel anxious, emotional, overwhelmed and out of control this morning. So I keep reminding myself “focus on one thing.” God keeps reminding me to put him first and then everything else will fall into place. If I focus on one thing it needs to be God. If I accomplish one thing today it needs to be taking time to sit with God, speak to Him, let Him speak to me and read His Word. As I have been crying out to him frantic and upset about how my days have been going I have not been listening to his quiet whisper “rest in me.” Throughout this whole experience (terrible episode of depression) God has been telling me to start my days with Him.

Yesterday after an hour and 15 minutes of crying in my therapy session I left knowing I needed to get back to the basics. I have not been sleeping well and everything has been falling apart since. I have a million things I want to do, work on and catch up on that I cannot stop thinking about. I think I use so much energy thinking about all this “stuff” that I am too exhausted to do much of anything. So yesterday my therapist told me I needed to get back to a bedtime (I have been staying up late due to anxiety and poor decision making). So back to the basics I go, I will put God first and go to bed by 11:00 pm every night.