Gratitude/Happy List continued
65. It was wonderful to see my sister this weekend
66. My Husband is amazing. He is loving, supportive, and so good to me.
67. I have several extended family members who care about me.
68. My daughter giggles all the time
69. My dog is always happy to see me.
70. My daughter likes her friends at daycare
71. My mom is with a man who truly loves her and makes her happy.
I feel kind of weird today. I feel extremely tired. I went back to bed this morning and slept until 10. Then I took a two hour nap this afternoon. And now it is 6:30 and I am ready to go back to bed. At first I just thought I was tired but now I am wondering if the tiredness is due to depression. I do feel kind of blah but I also feel really tired. I have not walked yet today because it has been raining. I have walked the past couple of days but I have not taken time to journal, do my relaxation exercises or read my Bible. I wonder if not taking time for those things has contributed how I feel right now? I really don’t want to do anything except sleep and maybe watch TV.
My daughter is giggling in the background and that is making me smile. She has such a precious little giggle. If I was feeling energetic and like myself I would go grab her and play with her. But my rear end is still sitting in this chair. My legs feel like lead and my head is foggy. I still feel like I just want to go to bed.
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A note to my family and friends; this is a journal of my battle with depression. It is raw, it is real, and it may be hard to read at times. But this is all a part of my healing. It is powerful and therapeutic to have an outlet, and if God can use my heartbreak and struggles, how worth it this will be! If you feel led to walk this journey with me, please do. But please don't pick apart what I have said in the midst of a dark day, and use it against me. This is intended to be a source of processing the dark, while seeking the Light. If you are able to understand that, please join me on this journey back to health. Also note that I have no desire to hurt myself. My truest desire is to simply feel better.
A note to my family and friends; this is a journal of my battle with depression. It is raw, it is real, and it may be hard to read at times. But this is all a part of my healing. It is powerful and therapeutic to have an outlet, and if God can use my heartbreak and struggles, how worth it this will be! If you feel led to walk this journey with me, please do. But please don't pick apart what I have said in the midst of a dark day, and use it against me. This is intended to be a source of processing the dark, while seeking the Light. If you are able to understand that, please join me on this journey back to health. Also note that I have no desire to hurt myself. My truest desire is to simply feel better.
- Carly
- I am a 33 year old stay at home mom. I have a very supportive husband. I have been dealing with depression for half my life and have been on medication for 14 years. The meds are no longer working. My diagnosis is major reoccurring treatment resistant depressive disorder. I am desperate to feel better. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. I believe He is all powerful and mighty but I often don't understand how my depression fits into His plan. I want to have hope but I am feeling hopeless.
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