Getting Organized

I am feeling really good today. I miss V terribly. I am looking forward to being healthy enough to have her home with me again. I took a long walk, read my devotional, prepared a package for my friend, chatted with a friend on the phone, had a good conversation with my neighbor, called the doctor, called the vet, and now I am journaling. The sun is shining and I feel very motivated to get “things” done. The question is; will I accomplish the right things? I still struggle with organization. I have a hard time prioritizing my activities. There is always so much to get done.

I want to do something that will really bless Nate. He has been so amazing, supportive, and patient. A clean house would bless him. I just don’t know where to start. There is so much organizing and cleaning to get done that I get overwhelmed just thinking about it. I don’t know where to start. I need to make a list of all the work that needs to be done and then prioritize each task. I have a really hard time with this. My brain seems to get overloaded when I try to get organized.

I don’t feel like showering. I realize that sounds weird. Most people love to shower but for some reason it is a lot of work for me. I think that is still a symptom of depression. I think I feel like I have limited energy and time and showering is just too much work. I certainly don’t want to be the smelly person that people don’t like to sit next to. So I really need to work on changing my attitude about this. I also don’t want Nate to feel like I have totally let myself go. I have in many ways but not because I don’t care about looking good for him. Depression just sucks so much energy away from me that self care is something that gets pushed aside until I have more energy. Lord please give me more energy and more motivation to look good for my man.

Happy/Grateful List continued

93. I had a great phone conversation with a friend today.
94. It is finally shorts weather outside.
95. I was a blessing to my neighbor.
96. V and I are planting working on a garden together.
97. The weather was perfect for a long walk.
98. Today is Friday so I will get lots of quality family time the next couple of days.
99. I learned a new skill yesterday (how to drive a ride-on lawn mower).