A note to my family and friends; this is a journal of my battle with depression. It is raw, it is real, and it may be hard to read at times. But this is all a part of my healing. It is powerful and therapeutic to have an outlet, and if God can use my heartbreak and struggles, how worth it this will be! If you feel led to walk this journey with me, please do. But please don't pick apart what I have said in the midst of a dark day, and use it against me. This is intended to be a source of processing the dark, while seeking the Light. If you are able to understand that, please join me on this journey back to health. Also note that I have no desire to hurt myself. My truest desire is to simply feel better.


Friday, October 8, 2010

I Believe

I have been singing to my daughter at night when she has trouble falling asleep. First I sing her I See the Moon from Camp Newaygo and second, Barges also from Camp Newaygo. The third song that I go to is a song that I learned in High School at a retreat called Happening. The words have speaking to my hear as I have been singing them. The words are as follows:

I believe in Jesus
I believe He is the Son of God
I believe He died and rose again
And He’s coming back to take us home

And I believe that He is here now
Standing in our midst
With the power to heal now
And the Grace to forgive

I have been thinking to myself how this is a beautiful simple proclamation of my faith. This is what I believe. I often get stuck on the words “with the power to heal now.” God does have the power to heal me. And I believe he is healing me it just happens to be in his timeline rather than mine.

I believe that God has the power to heal me completely right now. This very second. Why he doesn’t, I am not sure. But I do know that God has a plan for my life. I know that he is good and that he loves me more than I can possibly imagine. I believe in Jesus. I believe he is the son of God. I believe he died and rose again and he’s coming back to take us home. And I believe that he’s here now standing in our midst with the power to heal now and the grace to forgive. Thank you Jesus for you love, forgiveness, presence, and healing power.
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  1. UnknownOctober 12, 2010 at 12:27 PM

    I know I song similar to the one you posted. It's called Creed by Rich Mullins. It's really amplifies the Apostles Creed that we say in church. Plus it's a great song. I LOVE this song, saying/singing it, proclaiming what I believe, it's such a great statement of faith.

    Here's a link if you're interested: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Tpq4MoRVV4

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