Coffee Talk

This week is flying by. I have been like a roller coaster. Up –down-and-all-around.

I was feeling very depressed yesterday. I could not muster up the energy to go see my therapist. Probably a very bad move but I just could not do it.

Later in the evening I wanted to cancel my plans with my childhood friend D who I had not seen in at least a year. I wanted to see her but the depression was clouding my judgment. Luckily my hubby talked me into going.

We had fabulous coffee talk. It was so good to catch up and laugh! Laughter truly is the best medicine. I love to laugh. I miss it so much when I am depressed.

D has moved back to the area and I am delighted. I am excited to spend time with her and her beautiful girls. It is funny how life is like a circle. We have known each other since she was 8 and I was 9. Now at almost 33 and 34 (our birthdays are 4 days apart this month) we are in the same place at the same time. This friend and I went to camp together and I am thinking of a camp song.

All My Life’s a Circle

CHORUS:
All my life’s a circle, sunrise and sundown
Moon rolls through the night time,
Til the day break comes around.
All my life’s a circle. I can’t tell you why.
Seasons spinning round again,
The years keep rolling by.

Seems like I’ve been here before,
Can’t remember when.
I’ve got this funny feeling
That we’ll all be together again.
No straight lines make up my life.
All the roads have bends.
There’s no clear cut beginning,
And so far no dead ends.

I’ve found you a thousand times,
Guess you’ve done the same.
Then we lose each other;
It’s just like a children’s game.
As I find you here again,
A thought runs through my mind.
Our love is like a circle;
Let’s go round one more time.


Ahhh sweet Camp Newaygo memories, they always make me smile. It is funny how we thought our lives were complicated back then but they were really very simple and glorious. We used to talk about the “real world” verses the camp bubble. It was a bubble in many ways but we also learned so many irreplaceable life lessons. It was my safe haven for many years.

Anyway….back to seeing D again, we met for coffee and had a glorious time catching up and laughing. I cried as I shared about my struggle with depression but let’s face it, crying is nothing new for me. She listened and loved on me. We have actually known each other for 15 years. She is one of my oldest friends. Thank you so much D for the laughter, love and fun memories. I am looking forward to many new wonderful memories with you.

I enjoyed my daughter today. That is truly a victory. There have been so many days when I have not enjoyed anything. I am so grateful that I am feeling a bit better. It feels wonderful to feel. It feels wonderful to feel good and experience enjoyment.

I did not get anything done around the house today (except two loads of laundry) but I enjoyed V. I think that is definitely a good (victorious) day.