A Place of Hope

Depression is really taking a toll on my family. I am trying so hard to be ok but I am finding myself being irritable, inpatient and raising my voice at V way more than I want to. I feel tired pretty much all the time.


The mornings have been better. I have been really intentional about waking up and praising God. I thank him for the day and commit to following Him and choose to have a good day. I feel energized for a couple hours sometimes. Other mornings I feel “good” for 5 minutes. Ugggg.

By evening I have so little patience for V. I love reading her books but I am almost always too tired to do this at bedtime. That makes me sad.

I have been doing some research on facilities that deal with Depression recovery and treatment. I have found one that I REALLY like. Their whole philosophy is to focus whole person (body, mind and spirit), holistic healing and health. I love that. This whole person approach integrates all aspects of a person’s life.

1. Emotional well-being

2. Physical Health

3. Spiritual peace

4. Relational happiness

5. Intellectual growth

6. Nutritional vitality

Their goal is to deal with the root issue and not slap a band aid on the problem. I would receive help for my emotional eating, insomnia, Fibromyalgia, hormone issues, Depression and Anxiety. The program would include complete medical and nutritional testing and assessments. I would have an assessment and Nutrition plan done by a dietician. As well a fitness assessment by a certified fitness trainer. I would also receive a complete medical work up and exam, blood work, food allergies screening, a hormonal profile, and menu planning by a registered dietician.

Then they do all sorts of group therapy. I would have homework like reading of specific books that deal with my specific problems. I would also meet with doctors and therapists individually. The woman I spoke to emphasized how they personalize the treatment to each patient, that it is not a cookie cutter program. She was very encouraging and hopeful. Actually the nickname for the treatment center is “A Place of Hope.”

This all sounds great right? Yes I would totally love to get healthy and get my life and dreams back. However the program is very costly. I would have to fly to the location which would be an added cost. They are checking my insurance to see how much would be covered. The money is a BIG issue since if our insurance does not cover it would be $20,000. The other big issue is that I would be gone for a month. 4 weeks away from my baby. Four weeks that Nate would have to be a single Dad and others would have to care for Vienna during the day. I don’t know.

I am praying for wisdom.

My friend S said “What is a month in comparison to getting your life back.” True. One month away is nothing if it would mean years of health and happiness. I don’t know. I am kind of excited but also not so sure. I don’t want to get my hopes up and then not be able to go.

The website is www.aplaceofhope.com

Please check it out and let me know what you think?